Joyanator

Its been a while since I let go of all of the crap I chose to hold on to, all of the crap that was pushing me off my rocker and stressing me to extremes. Since I shed the extra weight I have learned so much and gained more. That depth I spoke of before has been digging its roots into me and growing deeper. For those who feel forgotten, all of those who I have distanced from; I will not dig your grave for you, but I will give you just enough rope to hang yourself. Come to me, try... put something forth, change is inevitable, it can be good, it can make men out of boys and boys next door out of @$$h0l3$, but it sure as hell aint easy. Your n

Its the reason I cannot write. Too much to convey, and too little words and too little time. Not to mention what it takes of the other end to understand. The length and the breath of what I want to share, infinate. I seen a lot of this this weekend. So many people who's lives I wish to make better, people who could handle the depth of a life like mine. And although I understand that this world would never be as beautiful as it is without it, but why are our feelings so complex? I just wish sometimes that people could understand as I do. Understand how to live life to its fullest. But I suppose, as the old saying goes, many poor must die, for

Well, Early May two things are happening, one... I get to start working again with the ponies, and two... I get to go to regional's! :D A martial arts event. My dads testing for his e-dan, and I get to compete in tournaments. But the best part about going is meeting with masters and getting to hear stories and such. Walking around the hotel is like.. walk walk walk... BOW walk walk walk BOW and so on. Haha, Fellow martial artists/people who kinda get me EVERYWHERE! LIKE... hundreds of them in one building! with a really cool waterfall pool! Although they don't all get it in the same way that my dad and I do, its still nice. It will be a bit m